06
I gazed silently at Shen Xiaoxi, and in her presence, I found myself at a loss for words. I loathed her, despised this girl who had taken everything from me
I feel like a clown exposed under the spotlight, with nowhere to hide
This person is truly familiar, even the words they speak evoke an overwhelming sense of familiarity
A sudden jolt ran through my heart as I reached out to turn off the faucet
I sat down on the chair, and the school doctor brought a basin of clean water. I submerged my feet in it, and a sharp pain pierced the soles of my feet. After cleaning the dirt off my feet, the school doctor treated my wounds and applied medicine.
I said softly, "Teacher, do you have any iodine for disinfection?"
Give up, Bai Xiaodie
I detest you for using such words to strip away my disguise, making me realize that I am merely a cowardly fool
Thus, this white butterfly...
I lowered my head, and she followed my gaze to see my bare feet. With concern, she said, "Why aren't you wearing shoes? Let me see quickly."
"How did your intelligence grow to such a level?" The boy standing to the side wore a mocking expression, his words unrelenting, each sentence like a sharp blade, capable of peeling away the facades of others and piercing into their hearts
Leaning on the desk, the whispers in the classroom began to rise again. My hearing was more acute than ever before
I feel like a deflated balloon, being told for the first time in such direct terms that I am weak and foolish.
I once believed and waited for it, but the miracle did not happen. I only waited for a real white butterfly to fly into my home, taking away my father, taking away everything from me, even the secrets hidden in my diary.
It was only when I could not completely hide myself no matter how much I tried to shrink away that I quickly stood up, hurriedly gathered a few books, and rushed out of the classroom with my backpack.
Bai Xiaodie, you strive to become invisible, making every effort not to cause trouble. Even when your only family member is taken away, you force yourself not to care. You write down those unspoken, subtle thoughts in your diary, which are read aloud by others in public. You dare not scold them loudly, but instead faint in embarrassment.
"Because when you put pen to paper, you must be prepared to be discovered; this is self-inflicted. If a true secret is not meant to be known by others, it should be kept in the heart, securely locked away with several locks, and not spoken of to anyone," he said
"Here you go." She slapped my diary onto my chest, then let go, and the diary slid down my chest with a "thud" as it hit the ground. "It was just a joke, why are you acting like this? It makes it seem as if I bullied you."
In this moment, I inexplicably feel very weary; Bai Xiaodie will never transform into a white butterfly, she will never become one.
In this world, there are all kinds of people. What proportion of them live recklessly and according to their own desires, like Shen Xiaoxi, without regard for the feelings of others?
I did not respond to her words; I simply held my diary and walked away from her.
I no longer have the slightest expectation of him, or rather, from the moment he eagerly brought Shen Xiaoxi and her daughter into the house, I ceased to have any expectations of him.
The school doctor was quite surprised to see me come in from outside and asked, "Classmate, weren't you resting inside?"
As I pushed open the door to the classroom, the whispers inside suddenly ceased, and I could feel the gaze of the entire class upon me
"Are you from Class 5?" he suddenly asked. "I heard that there is a girl in Class 5 who secretly likes Xiang Nuo and even wrote her fantasies in her diary, which was read aloud by a classmate in front of the whole class, and she fainted in a rather embarrassing manner. The weak person they are talking about, it wouldn't be you, would it?"
"So is this my fault?" A wave of inexplicable irritation surged within me, a frustration that had begun to rise since he spoke that way earlier, slowly building up until it finally erupted. "Why is it my fault? Why is it always my fault? I have tried my best not to trouble anyone, I strive to become invisible, so why am I still at fault?"
How shameless, she still dares to have such dreams
I do not know
He turned and walked into a classroom, pulling out a chair from inside and placing it in front of me. I sat on the chair, washing my dirt-covered feet with cold tap water.
Haha. He suddenly burst into laughter, and even his laughter was filled with a tone of mockery. "But on the contrary, I actually quite like you! It is because of guys like you that I appear wise and intelligent."
The sole of the foot was indeed cut in several places, and blood oozed out
I put on my shoes, thanked the beautiful and kind school nurse, and then began to walk towards the teaching building
She caught up to me from behind, grabbed my shoulder, and forcefully pulled me back: "Stop!"
I simply gazed quietly at her face, watching her lips move in and out.
I bent down to pick up my diary and heard her ask me: "Hey, Bai Xiaodie, you won't tell your dad, will you? The little kids in kindergarten love to tell their parents when they lose a fight or an argument, so that their parents can back them up"
Why do such people exist
"So, you are just a cowardly fool," he said coldly
I was at a loss for words, so what?
Others are already suffering enough, yet he still chooses to look down from a height and use such malicious words to hurt others. Such a person... really, truly very detestable
The sky has darkened, and I ran back to the infirmary in one breath
He was taken aback for a moment, then raised the corner of his mouth and smiled: "So?"
... ...
How could anyone be as despicable as you! I shouted, and then I covered my nose and ran away from him.
Although I am very reluctant to return to the classroom, having missed a day of classes, if I also miss the evening study session, I will surely be criticized by the homeroom teacher
It is just that, it is just that, the gloomy fellow makes me somewhat afraid to stand beside her, always feeling that something bad will happen
Bai Xiaodie! Shen Xiaoxi called out to me from behind, but I did not stop my pace; instead, I endured the pain and quickened my steps
It is said that making eye contact with her will bring misfortune
So, what is the matter with this person
What she said was merely to provoke me into not telling my father about today's events; in fact, she was overthinking it. That father, who does not even know how tall his own daughter is or what size dress to buy for her, has long ceased to stand behind his daughter
But... apart from the diary, I don't know who else to talk to! I lowered my head and murmured in rebuttal, "Why should I be blamed? Isn't it the fault of those who steal diaries and pry into others' secrets?"
Only fools and idiots would write important matters in a diary, as such things are too easily taken by others. He lowered his head to look at me, and in that moment, a sudden roar echoed in my mind
I stood up, disregarding the injuries on my feet, and said: "Although I want to thank you for giving me a tissue, I still want to say that I really dislike you"
I lowered my head and quickly walked into the classroom
I want to bury my head even lower, I want to become invisible, more than ever before
The school doctor was taken aback for a moment, looking at me with some confusion
Mother said, "Xiao Die, the caterpillar will surely have a day when it transforms into a white butterfly"